choices.

in life we have choices, mistakenly i chose you..
caught up in the history and friendship i believed that we could have something more.
anticipating something better, caught up in a stolen moment.. away!
only to realize it was all just an illusion. and the pretenses that you presented were nothing more than a facade. silly me..
because honestly, i believed that finally you could be all about me..
just once, not placing your friends or your pride above the relationship we were trying to form.
See i was willing to compromise. leave out the 'title' that you so adamantly despised as long as i forever had you by my side.
I hid my desire for pda and tucked away my doubts of you really dedicating your life to a woman until your last day..
only to hear them echo
telling me once again i've made a mistake.
Its hard to let go of countless months of shared laughs, and families adopted through connections and holidays that have past..
yet, im looking for a way out. minimal pain with maximum gain and a way for the friendship to continue without the bruises of letting go all that we've been through.. but we are not the same.
more like positive and negative ions that have somehow connected.
but my positive needs a positive and your negative needs the same.
at some point we have to realize love is the name of this heartbreaking GAME!