. . . frustration.

maybe i'm used to the more conventional things..
you know the holding hands, sweet nothings, and everything new love brings
but this, this love makes me want to scream.
i dont feel like a partner, more like a friend..
and, when we're out in public platonic vibes are all you send..
i want the cuddling, kissing, and staying up late pillow talking
the millions of pictures documenting stolen moments
the giggles from the numerous insiders we share..
but that feeling, that relationship, that compatibility isn't there..
not something i'm used to, i can't say i like it
i want to be someone's lover all the time, not only in private
your undivided attention is all that i deserve...
but yet, even that doesn't satisfy the emptiness or urge
i want a relationship, a companion, someone that will be there at every moment
give me love and affection at any instance i want it..
but you wont give it..
living a lie, to protect your "straight" image
losing me in the process to save face, not realizing we're not in the same place.
. . . a losing race. but yet you still try to compete..
but, im learning and looking to satisfy ME!